I did not finish the Bikini Series 2014 like I wanted to. My life kind of fell apart right as last semester ended. I wont bore you with (all) the details, but a large part of me was broken. I took down the blog because I felt that I needed to be in a more private place in order to heal. I shut myself off from the world in more ways then one, really only seeing people through my job. I don't work very much either, so that wasn't even a huge burden.
Through being a total introvert I began to heal. I sewed up what remained of my broken heart, and slowly rediscovered who I really am on the inside. I felt that I spent soooo long trying to be someone worthy of someone else, and lost sight of who I really was. So beginning to notice my true self coming back was like being reunited with an old, very great, friend. After finding her again, I spent some time with her reconnecting. I forgot how awesome she was, and how much I truly don't need to change for someone else at all. Slowly the self respect started to come back with a vengeance. I will never tolerate being around anyone who makes me feel bad about myself. Ever. And that is okay :) I will never be mean, or rude, because that is not who I am, but if I ever find myself in a situation where someone is threatening my self respect I will politely walk away. How freeing is that? Its so simple. Oh these lessons you are supposed to learn when you are young! I suppose I am lucky to be learning them later in life, because that must mean that I spent my younger years surrounded by lovely people who supported me 100%. That must be why they are all still a part of my life.
In fact, one of my BFF's Juliette has a great blogger following, and she is involved in the "Blog Every Day In July" link up and strongly encouraged me to get involved as well. So I will be starting that tomorrow!
In the meantime, I'm Happy to be back and in the swing of things! I have missed this so much!
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