Friday, May 27, 2016

Why Can't I Let It Go?


In my late teens/early 20's I had a goal, or dream rather, to write a book.  I loved to write, and still
do.  My plan was to work a regular 9-5 job that required very little commitment so I could spend my energy on writing (and being a mom).  Well after a few years, the job that required little commitment made me bitter (being entry level apparently makes it okay for a manager to treat you like crap), and I was so depressed that my writing didn't really go anywhere.

So I changed career routes, and I found something I really love.  I have spent the last 5 years dedicated to train to be the best Dietitian I can be.  This summer is the first time in the past 5 years that I actually have a bit of a break.  In undergrad, you need to spend your summers working and volunteering to gain hours in order to get into a dietetic internship.  Well, I got into the internship, and although I am still working 3 nights a week delivering pizzas for spare cash, I have been instructed not to take on anything too strenuous to ensure adequate energy for said internship.

I have been resting for one week, and all I can think about is beginning to write again.  I can't figure out if it is because I am destined to write, or if I am just that stubborn.  I don't even know if I still have talent! The majority of my writing lately has been scientific (read: technical) reports.  I cannot think of a specific story I want to tell; it is not that a character is burning to come to life or anything.  I just can’t shake the need.

It would be lovely to be published, but I am not trying to get famous.  I just really want to write a book.  I want to develop a story, write characters I love, and have a project that is just mine. 
At this point in life should I bother trying?  

3 comments:

  1. It's always been a dream of mine to write as well - and I can tell you that just getting it out of your head is the most important part! Your perfect story isn't out there yet, YOU have to write it. Even if you just scribble it out on a napkin, it's something. You can worry about what to do with that writing once it's done. I had my first novel published in the fall of 2014, and it was a major accomplishment. I'm still nowhere near being done with my second, but I will be happy just getting a few words out every day. Best of luck my dear! You don't need to dedicate your life to writing in order to be a writer - you just have to write! xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much for your support! I really appreciate your kind words. I am taking it slow and trying to get a routine down. What is your book called? I would love to check it out :)

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